1.24.2006 (7:24 PM)
Tired. *Sighs*
Regarding the previous post, you may think I'm thinking of stupid things, but right now I still believe in what I said. Regarding such stuff, it's hard to change my thinking. You see, I don't see what's the point of having "life". Don't tell me what "still so many things to learn and discover" shit. Because, you're going to die without the knowledge anyway. You live for what ? For your loved ones ? But why do you live for your loved ones ? Like, they're going to die one day. Like, what I'm trying to say is humans living in the middle of nowhere on a round ball, is meaningless. So what if you're living ? So what if there's a universe ? Sometimes I imagine that all this universe thing is just God's gameboard, and we're his tokens. Like we're just in a game of God's. Urgh. Nevermind. I don't think anyone will get my point. Forget it forget it. I'll be the only follower of my philosophy.
*Sighs* School is as borring as ever. Someone please give me the motivation to excel. I've lost all of it. When you don't even have the motivation to live, don't talk about motivation towards studies. So, today slacked at 3/2 after cca. Nothing to do. Behaved liek a mad girl. Was feeling.. wierd. I don't know what's with me nowadays. Mental disorder. So anyway.. went back at 6. Went to change bloody watch's battery. That bloddy watch, use not long then batt no more and strap is going to tear soon. When going home, walked past Mac. I bought the Fan-tastic thingy. THought of trying. Regret totally man. Damn disgusting. Charge me 6.20 for a bunch of veggies and some oily rice and chicken. Damn damn damn oily. Finishing it is like hell. I'm drinking oil ! Literally. ( Later Mac go sue me [ haha like real !] ) I must drink bloody lot of water to rinse of the oil. God. And it's like $6.20 for a meal.
I can't wait for the weekends after CNY ! I need a big big rest. And I want to go shopping. I love shopping. It's when I get all my confidence and everything I want !
afizah
class 2-3