1.08.2006 (10:52 AM)
This is my 134th entry in this blog.
I've not been good in making decisions, and I think I made a wrong decision again. Seems like I don't really know myself that well. *Sighs*
I love weekends. Because I don't need to go to school. Wanted to do homework yesterday, but what have I done ? Absolutely nothing. I'm starting to hate my life. No motivation.
It's really terrible to lead a motivation-less life. Maybe one really needs a really far-away goal. I'm thinking, so what if I study hard and make myself proud of myself ? I'm nowhere nearer any goal. I'm just walking down the road of life, like what I'm supposed to do. But when the next junction comes, I'll not know where to go again, because I don't even know where my destination is, or maybe where I want my destination to be. I would rather someone set a destination for me than to decide on my own. At least then, I won't be hating myself. At least, I would be thinking that someone ruined my life, and not me.
But actually, the destination for everyone's life is the same. It's just how you feel when you reach there. But you born with nothing, and you die taking nothing too, including feelings. You leave those feelings to the people on Earth. But as time goes by, those feelings will fade away. *Sigh*
Isn't it amazing, about what goes on in one's mind ?
Retail therapy yesterday. Didn't really work. Bought another skirt. I don't know why I bought it, since I know I won't wear it. Wasted money, wasted time.
afizah
class 2-3