1.05.2006 (5:19 PM)
I haven't blogged for THREE days !! Wow. So long since I didn't post for few days straight. An improvement. =)
So, I think I'm coping well. I hope so only. I know I should loosen up much more and be that lame disgusting girl. But that takes time. I'm still not close with everyone in this class. But after all, it's only been three days. I predict it'll take me around 3 4 weeks to be more 'me' in this class. I really really really really miss being in 2/3. I love having classes with 2/3. I miss always laming with everyone. I miss everyone being so fun. I miss writing 2/3 on my worksheets. I even miss the times we had to decide stuff as a class. Beautiful memories. And it warms my heart to see the 2/3 people together now during recess or after school. But nevermind, let's hope until April, ahsabi and spa will still be gathering at Aunty Jenny's. 11 Jan will be our first sort of said gathering. 2/3-ians will unite forever ! I simply love 2/3 too much. Now I'm scared one day I'll forget what happened during the past 2 years. I can't bear to imagine myself recalling those memories and yet can't.
But no matter what, I'll study hard. It's somehow forcing myself to do stuff I don't like. But I don't hate it. Sometimes I even do enjoy studying, so I musn't let laziness defeat me. I know I've been saying this lately, but I really need to remind myself of my goals for this year. You can expect me saying this in every post these two years. I just need to remind myself. I'm big now, 15, and I need to learn to prioritise and practise self-control. I'll stop watching TV so much and stop using the computer so much. I'm almost 15 already and I need to be matured. No more childish excuses to myself. Yes, I'll work hard !! Go Pamela, GO !!
But actually, I'll still blog. It's a kind of social thing and I can't be studying the whole day. I need to relieve stress too. I'll blog out ALL my frustrations. And encourage myself here. YES, PAMELA, YOU ARE STRONG, YOU CAN DO IT FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR FUTURE !!!! I better go set up a resolutions and wishlist thingy in my blog to motivate myself even more. YES YES YES !!!!
afizah
class 2-3